I like when you learn a secret about somebody and then you look at the things they say and do in the light of that secret and you understand them a little more and why they are the way they are
Going to the doctor this week.. I’ll probably be diagnosed with some form of heart condition, considering my heart rate has been randomly going up to 130 or higher for no reason, skipping beats, and then going down to 65 before going to my normal 80. It’s the worst feeling ever. I’ll just be sitting there doing nothing and all of a sudden it feels like I just ran a mile or I’m scared of something. It scares the shit out of me honestly, especially when it skips a beat. My heart stops, only for a fraction of a second, but it feels like forever.
I’m really just falling apart. I’ve been sick all the time this year, and now I have heart problems, and my entire body aches constantly. And it really doesn’t help that I can’t sleep. I’m pretty sure I have insomnia. I’ve always had a hard time getting to sleep, but this last week has been terrible. I’m currently running on a total of about 8 hours of sleep since Monday.
God I hope the doctor does something helpful.
